10 Days Until I Move Out for Good

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Hey, so, as some of you guys know, early this September I'm going to be moving way across the country, partly to go to pilot school and partly to live nearby my lovely  . It's only 10 days that I'll be going now, and the finality of everything is hitting me like a brick. 

This will be possibly the biggest event in my life up to this point. Even when I moved away to college, that was only about a 4 or 5 hour drive away, which made it easy for me to visit my family or vice versa. At least, you know, it worked for things like holidays and such. 

Now, though, I'm over 2,500 miles away from home. That's longer than the width of Europe  -- which is hitting me particularly hard because the area I'm moving to has very little public transport, so it's essential that I bring my own car. Meaning I gotta drive there. Or that I need to spend $1200 for a transport service and another $500 for a plane ticket, and screw that  . 

Not to mention, that this pilot school doesn't go on a conventional school schedule. No long breaks, no good time for me to take long vacations to see family. I get off 2 weeks in between each "mini-semester"--which is like two months-- and that's about it, and I certainly can't afford to take a plane ticket every two months just because either. There needs to be a holiday or something coinciding with the visit. I don't have enough time to come back for Thanksgiving, and I was planning to spend Christmas with this year. 

Those things together mean that these 10 days will be the very last that I spend with my family for a very long time  . 

The program lasts about a year and a half, maybe less because I already have a lot of flight hours and college credits, and for that length of time I'll be mostly stuck to Idaho. Even after that's done, I'll more than likely be getting my first full-time job as a Flight Instructor at the same airport for some time.


Bottom line is, this is the most major decision I've ever made in my life, and I'm scared  . I'm very scared. And I'm starting to miss my family and my home state. It just feels like I'm seeing everything around here for the last time, and it's giving me a very sickening feeling. 

Make no mistake, I'm gonna finish what I started, but it's just that the apprehension of it actually happening now is killing me.